Christmas!

Our Christmas was full of magic, blessings, and love! We were very blessed to be surrounded with those we love! Can't wait till next year!

ancestory.com

I have always longed to know about my family heritage. I want to know who these people are, that are tied into my genes. It's hard for me to find out all of this information, because I do not have a relationship with my mother, and that includes her parents, my father does not remember a lot of the information that his mom (my grandmother) would know, and my grandmother and grandfather (my father's parents) have passed away. So this leaves me to investigate the information. Of course GOOGLE only gets you so far, so I finally decided to go here. I have always wanted to go there and fill out my Family Tree, but I never have gone through with it. Tonight something told me to go to the website and sign up. They were offering a free 14 day trial! That was so exciting to see. I figured I have 14 days to play around with the website and see if I get the results that I want. 


I believe what I am really looking for is a way back to my grandmother. She was not only my grandmother, but she was my best friend and my mother. God put her on this earth, because he knew a little girl was going to need her one day. If it weren't for my grandmother, I am positive that I would have either been dead or on the street doing drugs. I wouldn't have any other choice. I will post about my life story another day, that will explain more in depth. Anyhow...my grandmother passed away on December 1, 1997. That was 5,131 ago, 

• .443,318,400 seconds ago
• 7,388,640 minutes ago
• 123,144 hours ago
• 733 weeks ago

I miss her a lot! I want to talk to her, hold her hand, hug her, kiss her, rub her back, paint her toe nails, go shopping with her....I just want to see her.  Hear her voice. Smell her perfume. 

I hate DEATH!!

here a zit, there a zit, everywhere a zit zit...

I thought zits were supposed to be a teenage to early and mid 20's kinda thing....not in your 30's!! I have not broken out like this in quite some time. Last night I went to the movies and when I got home and used the restroom, I looked into my bathroom mirror and said out loud "I cannot believe I went anywhere looking like this." I felt like I looked like a meth addict. I have these zits around my mouth and a huge cold sore on my upper lip. WHAT IN THE HELL is going on with my hormones?

This is either going to be one heck of a period or else......I will be updating other news in a few weeks!

Pulling my heart strings

I love to read to my children. It's time for me to cuddle them without them knowing : ) Some of our favorite stores include the Pigeon series written by Mo Willems. We own 2 of the books, and would love to own the remaining ones. Tonight Nolan told me that he wanted me to go online and buy the rest of them. He knows that I purchase all of my books from AMAZON. I told him I can't do it right now because we don't have the money to do that. He said " Mom, I have money in my piggy bank and I will share it with you, so you can buy me those books." 

This little man is only 3 years old and he is already this generous? Wow, I am a pleased mommy. I know that I am doing a good job at teaching him his manners and loving one another. 

I told him after he kindly offered his life savings, that I would never take his money, that money is his. I told him that I will be sure to buy him the books one at a time after the holidays. I have to admit, my heart skipped a few beats, my stomach fell to my toes, my skin got goose bumps and my soul melted when he made that generous offer. 

a little sweet and a little salty

damn HORMONES! I was even gifted with a cold sore this time around. Why is it though when what seems to be that "time of the month" is on the horizon...I still ponder the idea of whether or not I am pregnant? I am not planning on getting pregnant. In fact we are preventing another pregnancy at this time. Maybe it's because pregnancy symptoms and "time of the month" symptoms are so similar. I wonder how much money I have wasted on unnecessary purchases of pregnancy tests over the years? I bet I could go on a really nice vacation! Did somebody say VACATION?

About an hour ago I was craving pickles and something sweet. More like something that was chocolatey and ooey-gooey. I ate about 7 mini pickles...so the salty is taken care of, but I have yet to get my lazy butt off of this couch to satisfy the sweet.