3 weeks ago Nolan's pediatrician decided that medicine would be beneficial for his diagnosis of "disruptive behavior/adhd." His dad and I gave it a lot of thought before the decision was made, and agreed that we should try it as well. We of course did not want our son becoming a lab rat, but we knew that it may take a few different types of medicines to find the one that works best with Nolan.

The pediatrician decided to try Tenex because he thought it would work really well with the sleeping medication that Nolan was already on, which is Clonidine. The first day he took the Tenex we noticed immediate results. He went from a level 10 to a level 4 of. He wasn't hyper, he wasn't uncooperative, he wasn't moody, he wasn't ready to kill his sister, he was just a calm 3 year old little boy. We loved it!

Now that it has been 3 weeks of Nolan taking this medication on a continual basis, we have noticed that he is very emotional. He whines for everything, about everything, he cries about anything and everything. He is much more needy and clingy. He also seems much more lethargic throughout the day. This is not normal. This can't be. Tomorrow morning I will be calling his pediatrician to explain to him what is going on, and hope for an answer.

We just want our son figured out as quickly as possible. It goes from one extreme to another. I wasn't prepared for this extreme. This is confusing for us, heartbreaking, and frustrating.

911

Tomorrow morning I will be applying for a job opening in our area for an Emergency Dispatch Operator. I am so excited, because I have wanted to be a "911" operator since I can remember!! This is my calling. The pay is great, the schedule is amazing and it's a fun and exciting career!

Please pray that this is in God's will for me! I really want this.

Baby Fever

Why is it when I see a new baby or a pregnant belly I get that "baby fever?"  I get that longing to be pregnant again, the desire to hold and smell a new baby. I have 4 children, I feel like I want more. There have been a few times that I really believed that I was done having babies. Then, another baby came along and I swore that was the last. Now here I am AGAIN wishing that I was pregnant.

Michael possibly does not want another baby due to financial woes. I understand his concern, but yet, I also feel like we will make it. We always do, some way or another.

I am not sure I want to go through post-partum depression again with another pregnancy, but I know it eventually goes away. I am in school full time, and I know that this should be my number one priority, however it isn't. Why can't we have everything we want and all the puzzle pieces fall together?

I have a few years left until I obtain my Bachelors degree, so I think that is when we may talk about bringing a new baby into our family. Anything can change, and we understand that. For now, these are our plans and yeah, I may not like them at the moment, but in time it will make sense.

Out of the Mouth of Babes

A friend of the family picked up a pair of shoes for Madalynn the other day and dropped them off while she was sleeping. As soon as she woke up, I showed her her new shoes. She looked at them and said "no like them, boy shoes!" Oh my gosh I was so caught off guard I didn't know what to even say at first. I couldn't help but laugh, but I thought they would be cute with a pair of jeans and a tee-shirt. Apparently they are not glittery, and frilly enough for this girl! She won't even try them on.

It is amazing how kids define their personalities without the help of mom and dad. They are literally their own little person.

I lover her for her opinions, and I guess if she does not like them, then they will not remain in our house.

New Blog Site

Is there ever a time you feel like blogging about the most personal thoughts you have, but the one thing stopping you is....who your followers are? Or who has access to reading your blog? I find blogging to be cathartic. So why not open up and spill my feelings and thoughts into this online journal I have. Well, because some people just don't need to know everything that is going on in my brain! But I do need an outlet for those nights when I cannot seem to fall asleep because way too much is going through my head, or when I just need to vent about something way too personal for some to see. Some of my very close friends will have access to this new blog. They are the only people I trust with my life and my thoughts. They do not judge me, they do not gossip about me and they love me unconditionally! 

I will continue to use this blog for not so personal stuff of course...so please do not stop reading! I enjoy you coming by.

She is Two!

Madalynn is Two!

On NEW YEARS EVE of 2011

You have brought us so much joy! You are one amazing, beautiful little girl! 

I never thought that I would be so lucky to be blessed with 

A DAUGHTER.

I look forward to the future with you. 

Shopping

Pedicures

Lunch Dates

Prom Dress Shopping

Snuggling up and sharing secrets

 boyfriend advice

friend advice

girl talk

You are so special to your daddy and I! 

You love:

Your stuffed puppy

ni-night (binky)

baby channel

dora

baths

blankies

baby dolls

barbie dolls

You are:

Shy

Stubborn

a mommy's girl

and sometimes daddy's too

34 pounds

36 inches

in size 3T 

You talk so much

Love to go bye bye

Won't sleep in your bed all night long

Love night gowns~you twirl in them and stare at your reflection

Love to have pretty's in your hair (bows & barrets)

You love your Nolan

Love story time

Playing in water

You look for trouble to get into

You have to do everything on your own

You whisper at times you feel shy

you can count to 7

You love to dance

You love to cuddle with mommy

You run into daddy's arms when he gets home from work

You eat snow

you are just you and you are a magnificent YOU!

Thank you for picking me to be your mommy! These first two years have been a wild ride, and I look forward to two hundred more with you.

I am over the moon in love with you.

Happy 2nd Birthday Madalynn Jean!

Christmas!

Our Christmas was full of magic, blessings, and love! We were very blessed to be surrounded with those we love! Can't wait till next year!